so my computer is back

for sure?... i do not know.

life has been crazy latly. so much has haapend in the past few months. basicly been on house arrest wich is ridicoulous. im aloud out... but im realy limited. and my parents freak about everything christmas was goood. i got a ipod and money and we spent it with are family and stuff. i still dont have a/my cell phone and im not sure wen im getting one or getting mine back. my parents dont trust me once so ever wich is ridicoulous.

ughh im currently boyless. and im getting sick of looking.  because its only a let down no one wants a relationship and the one person i find who does and i realy realy realy like and is incredible and amazing it just doesnt work out because of age and parents : / but watever..... life goes on

    im trying to find a job anndddd me and my parents are still fighting like crazy.... school is ok but my grades arent all that great and i dont look foward to school in a week

sooo the fair was incredible yesterday. i was able to convince and stratagize ways of free food, free games, free rides and o a free pig. HQHAHHAHAHA. its fairs that make me and everyone else relize wat alittle gurl i am at heart. megan was seriously like my mommy. having to hold my hand and me begging her and stuff/ haha i luv her her so much her and maria. there so awsome. megan takes care of me and maria just laughs at me. anyways homecoming is tommorow and saturday. u could say im pretty pumped. i mean whats not to be pumped bout??? i have a amazing date, my best friends are giong and we getta dance alll night. that all together sound sprety awsome to me. r football game should be intesnse too. pinnacle verse sagouro.... awsome. o and this realy handsome boy came over tonight : )... was pretty sweetttt.

 yuppp so my halloween was pretty goood. tommorow im giong to the fair for dance and get to miss the hole day :) its gonna be crazyy ill put pics up here tommorow.    hmmm i cant realy think of wats new. im to the point were im just numb to all the shit in my life. me and ryan have been talking alot latly. i dont know if its a good thing or bad thing but i kinda forgot how much of a big part of my life him and his family used to be to me. a hole year. im gradualy getting out the bad memorys of us and replacing them and remebering the good that i erased in my head about us. hes changed... though thats realy hard for me to believe. anyways im glad that im starting to rebuild that ...friendship.

its fall the season of change. fall is always the season were everything changes in my life year after year. i want to be at my cabin. were the everythings so careless and the leaves are falling and the weather is warm and windy and the day and cold and snuggly at night. so many good memories up there at this time of year.

o p.s. tommorow im giong tricker treating : )!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o ya

bewareeeee

i don't want to spend another night trying to figure why you're always on my mind all i know you keep me coming back for more even when i think i've had enough when i tell you that it's over now we're done, don't let go, just keep coming back for more

yaaa thats what i wanttttttt O O O